Four years ago, I compiled a collection of poems titled “The Imperfect Portrait.” As a soon-to-be college graduate, I was uncertain about how life would be after graduation. Since I couldn’t predict the future, I started reflecting on my past and all the significant events that made me who I am. Interestingly enough, the circumstances surrounding the creation of that project are extremely similar to this collection of writings.

Whenever there’s a great unknown before me, I feel the need to create a time capsule to capture the thoughts and emotions I was dealing with at the time. …


Doubt and devotion often waged war in my mind. When you’ve been a Christian for as long as I have, you can start treating your faith more as a birthright than a blessing you didn’t deserve in the first place. Christianity has been so integral in all aspects of my life that it’s hard to imagine life without it. To some, that may come off as imprisonment. And at times, it did feel that way.

In a literal sense, it was always me against the world. From the way I dressed to how I acted both inside and outside the…


My complicated relationship with social media goes back to my early teenage years. I originally wanted nothing to do with social media at all. I knew about MySpace and FaceBook, but I had no interest in joining those sites. After a little bit of peer pressure and a growing fear of missing out, I eventually gave in to the hype. I used social media the way you would expect an angsty teenager to use it; to vent and to escape from the real world. …


I’m no professional archer or basketball player. Even the most experienced athlete experiences a missed shot or two. But as for me, it seems like I’m always aiming my shot at empty space. No matter how often I train, I might as well be juggling basketballs than shooting them.

Dead on arrival

I’m not only one for awkward introductions, but I’m generally an awkward person when it comes to dealing with people. I have to prepare for every social interaction and even with people that I do like, I automatically assume you will get tired of dealing with me eventually. …


First impressions are everything. However, we don’t always make the best impression when it comes to meeting someone new. But if you’re as socially awkward as I am, you dread every opportunity for social interaction because you’re convinced you’ll mess it up somehow. How simple would it be if we just went straight to the point?

Imagine instead of the typical “hey” or “how are you doing,” you’re given a monologue that goes something like the following.

A Very Honest Greeting

Hi, my name is Bryan Lordeus. I’m 24 at the time of writing this. I’m the third child of Haitian immigrant parents, yet…


We only use the language of our oppressors to express what has long been suppressed.

Protesters gather in front of a liquor store in flames near the police building in Minneapolis. Photo: AFP

To say that history will record 2020 as a year of unexpected changes would be an understatement. In a time where a foreign virus has split us all apart, it’s interesting how the murder of George Floyd is bringing everyone together in solidarity. As we’re still adjusting to the devastating consequences of the coronavirus, now the parallel pandemic of systemic racism has come back with a vengeance. Not that it ever left in the first place, but our tolerance for it has reached an all-time low. …


Understand that I did my best to comply with their demands while not coming off as threatening

A protester during a demonstration over the killing of George Floyd by a policeman on May 28, 2020, in Minneapolis, Minnesota. Photo: Anadolu Agency/Getty Images

If I ever become a hashtag, don’t assume it was intentional. George Floyd, Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor couldn’t have wanted to be famous this way. My paranoia about dying from police brutality is not unwarranted. You can only pretend to be human for so long until your dignity gets exposed for being nonexistent. And the numbness you feel from seeing yourself die so many times almost convinces you that the only freedom we have is death.

The moment I become a martyr, understand that racism does not live in the past. The white tiger still roams around uncaged. When you…


Lately, I’ve stopped keeping track of days. They all start to blend as being forced indoors feels more like incarceration. I’m too bored to do anything productive, yet I don’t want to spend the rest of the day doing nothing. It’s still dangerous to meet people in person and I’m tempted to delete the Zoom app off my phone. This may seem like an understatement, but my patience with COVID-19 is wearing thin.

Lives are lost, people are pushed to their limits, and coping mechanisms (healthy or not) can only do so much to combat the dark reality we are…


THANK GOD IT’S MONDAY: FALL

Whether we love our jobs or love to be away from them, it’s safe to assume that humanity’s relationship with working is complicated. As we struggle and toil through the workweek, we can’t help but wonder why work feels the way that it does. The very thing we spend most of our lives doing, we often do as a means to an end. And as much as we tend to compartmentalize our job roles from our personal lives, this was not part of God’s original design for work.

So to fully address our work challenges let’s revisit the Garden of…


“For to this end we toil and strive, because we have our hope set on the living God, who is the Savior of all people, especially of those who believe.”
(1 Timothy 4:10 ESV)

Fulfillment and frustration are both found in our vocations. If we’ve worked long enough, we have discovered that we typically experience the latter more often than the former. Given our fallen nature, we prioritize comfort over hard work when it should be the other way around. We find pleasure in avoiding work instead of through work. …

Bryan Lordeus

Copywriter | Blogger | A creative polymath with lessons to share and poetry to spill.

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