PinnedMake Room For What MattersLearning to Live Without Distractions. — “Every moment waited is a moment wasted, and each wasted moment degrades your clarity of purpose.” -David Deida How often do you clean your room? Or your car? How about your workspace? Kitchen? Bathroom? Desktop screen? Every year, it gets harder to write these retrospectives. If you’re like me, 2021…Self Care4 min read
Feb 13Stop Being a Nice GuyIt’s not always nice being a nice guy — Hi, my name is Bryan Lordeus and I’m a Nice Guy. I can’t pinpoint when I started exhibiting symptoms of the Nice Guy Syndrome, but it has been a silent assassin of my affections and self-confidence since childhood. I’m a perpetual people pleaser, avoider of conflict, and seeker of approval…Valentines Day5 min read
Sep 22, 2021How I Want My Next 5 Years To Look LikeThe only way out of stagnation is to look forward. — On two separate occasions, both of my parents asked me what my plan would be going forward. A well-intentioned question that left my mouth speechless, mind empty, and heart restless for the next few weeks. Five years ago, I didn’t see myself where I am now. After college, I thought…Five Year Plan10 min read
May 28, 2021A Broken Masterpiece: Hope for the HypocriteFour years ago, I compiled a collection of poems titled “The Imperfect Portrait.” As a soon-to-be college graduate, I was uncertain about how life would be after graduation. Since I couldn’t predict the future, I started reflecting on my past and all the significant events that made me who I…Self Improvement3 min read
May 27, 2021The Time I Renounced then Regained my FaithDoubt and devotion often waged war in my mind. When you’ve been a Christian for as long as I have, you can start treating your faith more as a birthright than a blessing you didn’t deserve in the first place. Christianity has been so integral in all aspects of my…Religion4 min read
May 26, 2021InstantGratification: Becoming A Victim to The AlgorithmMy complicated relationship with social media goes back to my early teenage years. I originally wanted nothing to do with social media at all. I knew about MySpace and FaceBook, but I had no interest in joining those sites. After a little bit of peer pressure and a growing fear…Social Media5 min read
May 24, 2021Shooting my Shot at Imaginary TargetsI’m no professional archer or basketball player. Even the most experienced athlete experiences a missed shot or two. But as for me, it seems like I’m always aiming my shot at empty space. No matter how often I train, I might as well be juggling basketballs than shooting them. Dead on arrival I’m…Relationships4 min read
May 23, 2021Awkward IntroductionFirst impressions are everything. However, we don’t always make the best impression when it comes to meeting someone new. But if you’re as socially awkward as I am, you dread every opportunity for social interaction because you’re convinced you’ll mess it up somehow. How simple would it be if we…Storytelling3 min read
Jun 8, 2020Change Starts With a SparkWe only use the language of our oppressors to express what has long been suppressed. — To say that history will record 2020 as a year of unexpected changes would be an understatement. In a time where a foreign virus has split us all apart, it’s interesting how the murder of George Floyd is bringing everyone together in solidarity. As we’re still adjusting to the devastating…George Floyd5 min read
Published in GEN·May 27, 2020If I Ever Become a HashtagUnderstand that I did my best to comply with their demands while not coming off as threatening — If I ever become a hashtag, don’t assume it was intentional. George Floyd, Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor couldn’t have wanted to be famous this way. My paranoia about dying from police brutality is not unwarranted. You can only pretend to be human for so long until your dignity gets exposed…Justice3 min read
